I should move, or do something drastic. It’s hard to be mindful when your head and mind is just out of it. I come to work, and just don’t connect with anyone. Even the ones I truly care for and I know care for me. There’s not even a handful of people I care for at work anymore. Eventually people show their true colors, and usually it’s a two-faced clown (I’m deathly afraid of clowns).
I’ve realized at the moment(I know, errrrrrr at least hope) this will pass. But I don’t like being nice to people and them be nice to me, and then the next day just be complete assholes.
I’m such a weird introvert. I do like to socialize but way hella awkward when I try to or am. Especially when I hardly know people.
So tomorrow, I’m going to a lunch date with my friend Dan. Our kids were babies and in daycare together so I haven’t seen him in over 8 years. Then hanging out with Pete, who is basically just my BWB. Pretty depressing. LOL Super fun, but super meaningless.
The Light Was Inside Me All Along 